Running in to a Black Hole...Priceless

So i was talking to Jared about serious stuff
Am i losing who i am?
He thinks that i'm not jansen anymore is that true?
sometimes what he says is kind of, well in my opinion naive
But i do see where he is coming from
He says he hates me because I know i'm ready for whats ahead of me
i already know,

The thing is i feel the same way.
I know what i want, i'm ready for whats ahead
I live with so much going on
I care about others.
I care about strangers.
what comes around goes around

I live my life with this motto:
"go day by day knowing that if u died tomorrow you would be happy, if your not happy do more today"

He also asked me why i believe.
Well my answer to that was because it's possible
is that not the correct answer
I believe in something because it's possible

All this started because I said i wanted to be a leader.
I want to be the leader of our bboy group
but not a big boss im in charge leader
and no a im better then all of you leader
more like a i'll support and keep us together leader
Jared said I can't be a leader, my personality doesn't fit being a leader
Vincent says i can be a good leader
In the future i do want to be president for VSA
it was a very recent goal
I talked to Elizabeth about it
probably the people reading this right now are like wow he must be insane
maybe things in the line such as i can't handle the role, or i'm to stupid
who knows

I hold grudges on one person right now
Fransisco
One day we were practicing and i taunted him a little
meaningless taunts, its for fun
our group taunts each other just for fun all the time
so as i was holding a side chair (which my one arm holding my hole body up)
he ran into me purposely
i fell forward almost landing on my face if my left arm didn't catch me
instead of an apology he said "you were in my way"
WHEN Clearly i have been in that space for awhile
if i didn't catch myself my face would be fucked up
my face was seriously less then an inch away from the floor
no apology
i won't let that go till i get one

Jared thinks i'm not the same because when we went to Peterpan Jojo, Oscar and Jared bought these swords, and i didn't. He said the Jansen he knew would have played swords with them and not miss out. In my mind i said i didn't want to be retarted. They hit me in the head with the swords as i sat there waiting for everyone to arrive. It was so stupid. When everyone else came i was happy to hear Elizabeth say "I'm proud of you Jansen, your starting to mature" Tom said "Wow you guys are idiots, Jansen good job being mature" it felt good i guess. What kind of pissed me off was that they ran out of money and only gave a 1 dollar tip. i felt bad for their waiter person i gave her a 5 dollar bill. paying the tip for their table. i bitched at Jojo, Oscar and Jared a little. I mean all the money they used buying those stupid swords could have went to paying for a decent tip. Jared said he didn't care about the tip. I guess i feel that i have a heart and i care about people even though i don't even know them.

Our BBoy group it's so divided. Theres my little group which is the main group. Which consist of Tom, Jim, Ji, Vincent, and I. Then theres that 3 man group, made up of Jared, Oscar and Jojo. and last that anti group. made up of Phillip and Fransisco. I don't want that 3 man group to be there. I want us to be a whole. I don't really care much about the anti group. I want us to be a crew a big crew. I want them to join Cookie Doh Crew.
This is where Jared's logic pisses me off
he believes that being in a crew will slow him down
where i believe it will improve us
I don't know where his logic backs him up but
my logic says learning from each other is always better.

Recently i've been to happy that i've lost my self control. Amy i still apogozie for that.
Also recently i didn't want to be around my close friends.
i actually hated you guys.
I felt left out, not wanted.
All i did was maple and break when i didn't speak to you guys
Idk why i just felt so unwanted since friday
what made me sad was when i was pointed out by one person that i was inmature
that one person should know how i feel about that.
such a little thing made me mad
it made me so mad i walked off to cool down
i wanted to see April, but she already left
when i'm mad or sad i usually don't show i just walk and relax
i must be really mad and sad for me to explode

Today for mimi's party i guess i regained my self control.
i missed my friends.
i wanted to talk to them,
i'm happy i did
to not be over to get over someone drives me crazy
espically when i run away from them
my instincts just bring me closer
my instincts want me to have fun and be happy
being with her makes me have fun and feel happy
so as i run away i just ran in a oval
why not a circle
because i ran away but ended up closer to her
I hate feeling this happy when i lost

I try getting over her, i fail
i even have intrest in someone else
but that intrest is always over powered by her
if only you could just leave my life
no why would i write taht
i would never want taht to happen
shes one of the most important people to me
rawr
penis dinosaur >>


"Seals are awkward on land but graceful in the water"

Green Tea makes me Pee Clear?

Black Friday!
What a strange day,
I camped out at Best Buy with some friends
I meet so many people that day :)
I had lots of Fun
There were these BBoys there and I went up to them and showed off and get lots of info on the Black Friday thing at Best Buy
I got to know Will and Chau pretty well too.
So I got all these frekin tickets for the door buster items!
and i FOUND A FUCKING SONY LAPTOP one!
I sold all those and made about 30 bucks!

After Robert took us to Tysons where i got my Puma Jacket.
I also got a hat and a necklace
I spent 80 dollars O.o
I NEVER GOT MY FUCKING WEBCAM
RAWR!
I still can't video blog yet...:(
My name is going to be Blurple Blender

I ALSO SAW APRIL ^^
I hugged her and i just didn't want to let go
I miss her so much sometimes >>
I'm glad i saw you

Will: "that Illigal"
"I'm Sirious"
"I'm cereal everybody"
wtf lol XD that guy is so funny

D: "wow theres like 15 asians"
first off there was only 6 of us ....lol what a bad estimation
"I bet 3 of me on top of each other would be the size of best buy"
wth u mean like 8 another bad estimation
"Whats the difference between a Pizza and a dead Baby"
noone knows
"I don't eat the pizza after i rape it"
....LOL greatest joke ever

Those are my new friends there so silly lol

I wanted to see Thy and April(different April then above) yesterday!
But they both couldn't go!
what sucks is when i got home April was like where are you
i told her i was at home
and she told me she was going to the mall D:
boo hoo :'(
Thy went to Kathys that fag -_-

Yesterday at Tysons i felt like it was 5-6ish pm and it was only 11 am
I HATED THAT it made me feel so confused
so i went home and slept for so long

Another Dream i have is to be like Passion.
Those who don't know Passion he's an amazing musician
Most of the song you hear him play are usually on his Guitar and he sings to
I wish i could play the guitar and sing like him
Favorite song: Lemonade ^^
One day I wanna play one of his songs and sing for a girl ;D
ONE DAY
So for Xmas i'm probably going to go buy a Guitar
If i accomplish all my goals i'll have so many skillzzzz!
Like Napoleon Dynamite says "Girls only like guys who have great skills"

What makes me mad...
When your not wanted and they tell you some really bad excuse on not to come. The worst part is when you know that your not wanted.

Jojo I'm sorry but i hate your new Jacket, Why couldn't you get something better -_-

Robot Turkieys Attacking all the Poor Little Boys

Merry Turkey Day!!!! :)
I'm at my Cousin Gordon's house celebrating with the family!
Gordon's playing some game called "Left 4 Dead" some shit like that
I got bored and went to the other computer and I guess started Blogging ^^

Man, I haven't seen Gordon in months
I haven't spoken to him online or on the phone nothing
Whenever he came over I was out.
It's been so long, I mean I wasn't ignoring him
but i wasn't looking for him ethier
It's been okay hanging out with him it's pretty funny.
It makes me think of our past, the good ole' days

Tonight i'm going to go camp out at best buy woo hoo!
With Trang, Robert, Elizabeth and such.
I'm pretty excited ^^
I'm going to buy a Webcam!
and then were going to tysons afterwards and i'm going to buy a new puma jacket!

~Recent News~
So Thy and April said that this guy on Youtube "Resembles" me
This is his Channel -> shimmycocopuffss
He has cool hair BUT HE IS not LIKE ME!
So to prove them wrong i've decided to start Video Blogging!
I will make better Video Blogs!
That is why i will be purchasing a webcam
I kinda want a Green Screen lol
That would be lots of fun :D
But it's no in my expenses to buy a Green Screen
SOON I WILL HAVE SOME NEW VIDEO BLOGS COMING SOON

btw i need a cool name for my video blog, if you have any ideas comment me the name :)

Fact: Turkeys once in another dimension had rifles and shot black penis' thus causing all the black penis' to extinct.

Rada Cream: For Your Liver ^^

Las Vegas,

I don't know why but i have fallen in love with the place
I love the city
I love the lights
I wish i could live in Vegas
But at the moment being underage and living in Vegas sucks ass!
You can't go anywhere or do anything.
To live in the desert, wow
What i like the most is BBoying in Vegas
~Knucklehead Zoo~
~Full Force Crew~
~Super Crew~
Wow the style
it's the landscape
My favorite place in Vegas has to be Paris.
It's so bright and beautiful
probably not as great as the real Paris but close enough
I want to dance there
Learn from the pros
The Style is so amazing
I guess i'm thinking this way because I saw Planet BBoy and my favorite scene is the USA one.
USA as in Vegas! I want to go back and find some BBoys! RAWR
Las Vegas your amazing
The City of Wonders

(favorite scene 1:03)

Thank Goodness you didn't hit me in my Blue Orby Mobober

As of recently i have become Invincible. I'm going to be like Iron Man. In the near future i will replace all my skin, bones and nerves with iron. the only place that will remain un-ironed is my penis and the palm of my hands. Not for ejaculation lol. I've told everyone that i'm invincible all day. How did this start humm...
Well in theatre today I was talking to Liz
First i told her about my Xmas Goal (read first blog to understand)
Then i told her that i feel like I can't get hurt anymore.
To prove it, Last time i dislocated my shoulder it came about an inch and a half out of my back
People were terrified of it, They looked like this -> O.o
It's weird but I had no pain at all.
It looked so painful but i felt...nothing?
In the hospital I joked around, i was happy all i wanted to do was watch some Cable Tv.
I've been cracking my body a lot, especially my neck
when i Air chair my arm wobbles while supporting my body and it cracks, and still no pain.

Is there something wrong with me?
Am i really inmature? Am i so inmature that when i try to be serious i'm just goofy?
What about Stupid? Does my nonesense and random-ness make me stupid?
Do i drive everyone crazy cause im annoying?
When I say annoying i mean like when your walking through a field and those stupid little flys are like all over you. They make noise in your ear and fly around you so obnoxiously?
Wish i could be normal

At times I think about how hypicritical I am.
It's like I remind myself of the one person in this world who I could never just get along with.
We'll call him "Pickles"
Since the day i meet pickles i didn't like him
I gave him opportunities to be friends
It seemed like he always fucked it up,
Well thats what i think
Maybe i was the one fucking up
It's like i just convinced myself to believe he was the bad guy
What about when he sees me? was i the bad guy?

Today when i was walking to Amy's House
Oh yeah before i write whatever i was going to say

WELCOME BACK AMY~!

WELCOME BACK AMY~!

WELCOME BACK AMY~!

WELCOME BACK AMY~!

WELCOME BACK AMY~!

WELCOME BACK AMY~!

So Anyways I realized that as i walked in the rain i lost all feeling from my face to my arms.

I felt no raindrops i felt nothing not even when i touched myself.
And I wasn't cold.
Then it just all came back i felt the rain drops again and when I touched my face.
My feeling just vanished for a brief minute and came back.
I guess it' s because i'm invincible, side effects of being Iron Man lol.

~Conclusion to an Unfinished Story~

So that night, ____ was lost in his thoughts. He was talking to his loving sister about it.
She asked him: "Who do you like more?"
He replied "_____"
"Who do you care about the most?"
He replied "_____" again
"Okay then! You know that old crush of yours isn't worth it, i would choose ____ anytime"
"I mean I guess your right..." he answered
"Go to sleep and don't think about it, you know who you care about it so leave it that way" she smiled and walked away.

He went to sleep and was lost in a train of thoughts. His old crush later called him, and asked if he would like to come out and hang out with her. ____ told her he couldn't because of his parents. The real reason was that his common sense finally kicked in! Mind over Hormones. He was happy, he went to school on monday happily waiting for ____. It seemed like a good day. That night they were at their friends house. watching some movies awaiting the arrival of an old amigo. ____ had to leave and he wanted to walk her back. As they walked they talked about random things. He carried her purse, at that moment he became the girl. When they neared their Destination, he finally stop being a pussy and brought up the subject. He told her that he liked her. They talked about it and at the end I guess she saw him more of a friend. When they arrived he handed back her purse said their farewells and he walked back to there friends house in the rain. He thought about it what has happened, I guess all that really matters is that he tried. It didn't blow over, it had a conclusion. Just like this story it had a conclusion after all.

My Rubiks Cube Blew Up in my Face T.T

I've been having so many awkward dreams lately
Like on Thursday night i had a dream that i was stuck in my house because there was a lion in front of my house. It reminds me a lot of one of Dane Cooks stand up jokes about the dream book.
Like he had a dream about a crab?
and when his friend looked through his dream book
crabs signified that "Your a Faggot"
and then his friend asked "was their lighting around the crab?"
Dane cook said "yeah there was"
his friend replied with "That means your a super Faggot" lol
I wonder what Lions signify.

Last night I had a dream that basically would never end
It started at yesterday when I was at Vincent's house
then i went to the party and i relived the whole night exactly like reality
then i blacked out and ended up at Vincent's house again
and this time i did something else
basically i started at Vincent's house and went through a different day
every time i fell asleep i would black out and end up at Vincent's house.
I don't exactly remember all the scenarios but i remember a few
Some left me happy
Some left me crying
I wish i had a dream book,
so it could tell me what those few dreams I remember meant.

We made 60 dollars raking leaves today ^^
That's pretty good because we did about 2 houses.

When i walk around & i look at something
i have visions of free running on it.
Dancing around it.
Flips next to it and blah blah.
every way possible to make it more entertaining!
I usually don't share my ideas because i feel stupid for thinking about it.

When i grow up i want to be a FIREMAN
...
no not really but I can't decide
I want to be in to acting and such
But i also want to be involved with Dance
I wanna be a hybrid between:
~Jon M. Chu (Director of Step Up 2, & creator of ACDC [Adam Chu Dance Crew] & LXD)
~Bobby Lee (Actor in MAD Tv, was in the movie Kickin' It Old Skool)
~Dane Cook (Stand Up Comedian & Actor)
I guess I want to direct dance movies, act in comedy movies, and be on MAD Tv.

Today I had a session with Vincent, Tom and Jim. It's like i felt more creative but more sloppy. BLAH i hate that. I wish i could be creative and smooth but RAWR. I want to be like BBoy Born. He's an amazing Korean Beat Rider. Beat Riding is when you dance it follows the music. It's Freestyling and being creative. Since my shoulder sucks, i can't be an all rounder because i can't pull of those insane big moves. I decided i would focus on footwork and be an amazing beat rider, thats how i get my cheers.

An Unfinished Story

So the main character of this story is a young teenage boy in the city of ____. His name was ____, he was a jolly ole boy! So anyways the story starts with him having a crush on this girl at his school. Her name was ____ he liked her very much. He believed that they could have a nice steady relationship. Sometimes Complicated but he knew they could always work their way out of their problems. At first he had his close friends that were close to her, talk between them. ____ was considering him once she found out. After several days went by it has seemed as if they were going well, not excellent but not horrible. A nice slow pace. It has been 2 weeks now and it was Saturday. ____ and ____ were at the mall together walking around and she had to leave soon. She was leaving town for a day and would be back tomorrow evening. When they saw each other again, which was at school it's as if she changed. She said it wasn't going to work. Their close friends have convinced her to give him one more chance. He didn't take that chance. _____ was a huge pussy. She now wanted everything to pass by as if nothing happened. He didn't want that to happen, but he didn't know what to do. He wanted to talk to her, a serious talk about important things. But he never got the nerve too, he was yet again a giant Pussy. It's now the weekend and its been a week since they went to the mall. Everything seemed alright, they spent the saturday together. Listeing to old records and playing with some turntables. When she left and _____ decided to go to his friends party. He was talking to one of their close friends and he told him to give up. At that point he was shattered, _____ felt like crying. The thing is ____ hasn't tried this hard on a girl for so long. ____ was special to him, she made him work harder, why? because she was worth it. More then any other girl was. Now this is when the problem starts to strike. He was at the party and was talking online with his old crush _____. His friend told him to go online and invite some more people to the party. His old crush wanted to come to the party, and he wanted to dance with her. She couldn't make it, but ______ wanted to hang out with him when the party was over. To Chill around the area and what not. He knew if he went he would find out if he still has feelings for his old crush, but if he went he would feel unfaithful to ____. Even though they weren't tied together by any commitment, he didn't want any guilt. With _____ he could have a nice steady relationship; with his old crush he can go wild. Fulfill his desires? He's stuck on that decision right now. Should he go with his old crush and fulfill his desires but carry guilt around with him. Or should he stay home and try to go for _____ someone who means a lot to him but seems as if their relationship is dying. This is where the story has no ending...


____ are where u put proper nouns
*you can name the boy, the girl, the old crush, and the city
*he and she help differ from whos who.

UFO's Stole my Babies

Hip-Hop is today's Key Word.
Let's see today I finally watched Planet BBoy.
I waited a whole week to watch it!
In the Movie they spoke of the 3 elements of Hip-Hop
-DJing
-BBoying
-Tagging
I did all but Tagging hahaha
First time i ever got to use a turn table and I kept calling Records Big Ass CD's!
Tomorrow Vincent and I plan on going to get some more Big Ass Cd's Hooray!
After watching Planet BBoying i was so hype i felt "clean?"
Today i've had killer back pains and i still do
When i was bboying Vy-anh called and told me she was at BlockBuster;
I ran there to give her a Blockbuster card so she can rent...Gresse? lol
After that run i started to have Asthma Attacks.
I suffered through the whole movie and a little bit after,

It's as if all my hopes are slowly dying
Every morning i pray for a good day but my prays never get through
I Pray for tomorrow; Hoping for a good day
Maybe it will be good let's think positive!
But for now all my thoughts are down in the dumps D:
I have no hope that anything will work
but Fuck me; I suck

Humm i wonder if this is a start of a good day,
So about 2 weeks ago i sent my broken headphones back to Skull Candy. they were really big and turquoise. Today (12:10) My brand new ones arrived! BUT THEY WERE BLACK not Turquoise i was so happy! Maybe thats the start of a good day i guess?

BBoying; it's dying. The Pride and Respect of it is atleast. People are starting to lose the respect and it's all BS now. The Few people who still live it the right way are the ones i session with. Repersenting Cookie Doh Crew all the way!

Hip-Hop Beat
Jansen
Please Bring some Good Luck for Tommorow


"Red, White, and Blue aren't my Flags Colors, BBoy is my Flag"

Cows Flying?

Hearow

So this is blogging?
I write whatever i want in this box and all you freaks and Stalkers can read it?
Sounds Fun!
Now i can lie and say weird things and maybe you freaks and Stalkers will believe me!
I have Gills...
hahaha Seriously i can breathe underwater!
Rawr, the blogs i have read of my friends they have such Fancy names!
mines like what "Jansen Stuff"
Thats kind of Lame!!!

oh wells i'm the unique one with the retarted name :D

So lately i've been having such weird feelings
from things that mean so much to me and things that will never help me in life
like PS3 of Xbox?
and girls and blah blah!

DAMN U MADUARINDA!

I'm also very excited to watch Planet BBoy too ^^
i've waited a long time and i've had it on DVD since Saturday but been waiting for Friday
a few more days woot woot

GOAL: When we come back from Winter Break i Will have a IronMan Shirt and Red pants and come to school looking like IronMan!!!