So it was Brenda's Birthday Party today and all my bboy buddies was there i guess it was time to take my last bboy stance All party it seemed like i was getting pressured to go in but i resisted and resisted finally i was like if Tommy goes then i'll go Tommy went LOL so i went XD and first time i went holy shit i was so unbalanced it was a feeling like never before i was unsteady unsure confused ><
~~~Blog will continue later i want some bagels kekeke [10:28pm]
Those were some delicious bagels GOOD THING THEY WEREN'T COVERED IN BUTTER *cough* *cough* Samantaaa :D
"all work and no play makes jack a dull boy" said Amy; it makes sense now i guess i don't want to force myself to be dull and i do need that right balance but sighhh it feels like so much work so much thinking i just hope one day i get it right please forgive me until then
Oh the everyday love story it feels as if only 1/6th of relationships actually become official it's so sad ;[ but isn't it the love that makes you get up everyday and try your best in the morning and buy an extra pack of peppermints XD isn't it what gets you though the boring day¿ i think so at least i guess everybody is tired of the love story blah blah blah blah idk i'm not LOL i still love them i think there fun and interesting
~~~Fried Rice and Bagels BBL [10:58pm]
I think the funniest part of today was when we were watching Jojo & Sang battle these 2 7th graders. it was funny because Seng would go "okay crowd decides who wins" it was obvious the 7th graders had more cheers but he would declare a tie breakers making them Dance more. After the Tie Breaker it was still obvious the 7th graders had the upper hand in cheers yet Seng still declared it a Tie Breakers! LMAO that guy is so funny; The 7th graders are like THATS ENOUGH NO MORE TIE BREAKERS! Me and oscar were talking about scenarios of what could happen these were the scenarios! 1. They go through over 60,000 tie breakers 2. One guy gets disqualified and that team is happy they can finally stop dancing but then seng saids SINCE YOU GOT DISQUALIFIED that means we must have another TIE BREAKER 3. He uses synonyms like "Sudden Death Match, or Time Attack!? LOL" Oh today was such a stupid silly day
Woot i gots another Bracelet from Visoda the girl who reads my blog so when i talk to her she knows my whole life already HAHAHA well she made me a nice new bracelet for my left hand Vyanh's still my nice on my right hand Ironic that Brenda Just IMed me asking what my favorite 4 colors were i remember Vyanh asked me that awhile back HAHAHA i told Brenda i already had a bracelet with my 4 favorite colors hahaha her mission fail LOL i drew it myself kekeke i accidently spelled HOOTICE wrong ;[
It's seems like the coming of age an era for change but it just doesn't feel right- but at the same time it feels right- Maybe i should follow up on what Amy said if she sees me better maybe i should act better more often, a lot of people see me as just a foolish fool? but when i'm serious and upset i can be Atticus? (f***ing Tiff) Maybe i should be more serious more often? more mature, but then it wouldn't be fun and i only act the way i do, to lighten up the room and keep everyone happy I must be a full time actor... But idk if i want to be like this, to act silly Silly is what people see me as and it would be sad for me to be normal like everyone else, I don't want to be dull but i don't want to seem like a fool to everyone sigh idk, oh Amy what should i do...
So i'm being removed from the gym for the rest of 3rd quarter i'm going to be in the EW library darn you Ms.Woodson
Everyone been so down lately from this to that it's like everyone is dropping tears i really can't wait for this whole thing to end and hopefully everything will be...better?
Aren't you so proud of me, i watched Oscar Jared and Jason break today but i didn't join it oh i wanted too so badly i wanted to try windmills but i didn't >> sighhh
Time to put away the pokemon cards Time to put the dancers shoes in the display cabinet Time to hang the bboy Jacket Time to hopefully be a better person
i love when someone cares to much i think its cute <4 i love poking Jiwon i like her sqwirm and screech it's adorable <4
i wish i wish with all my heart that one day i can do a backflip on to my head like Ryanmay ^^ (1:44 best part)
So i had this crazy dream it was telling me so many weird things the question was why i get crazy hair cuts and the ultimate answer my dream told me was for chicks? but then it made me think why go though so much hard work >> it made me kinda miss my old hair :[ simple and easy to take care of i think this is going to be my last crazy haircut and plus i dont need chicks ^^
Amy Tran aka May Chen can probably be one of the greatest people i've ever meet besides Jack Sparrow...okay i didn't meet Jack Sparrow :[ It seems like shes doing so much for us but she's miles and miles away... Why do we have to put her in these situations-
I was feeling horrible-doodoo ish and i call her to talk and yet she turned it all around and made me feel so much better and for that i thank her, so Thank you
She's been watching everybody even from a far, why does she spend her time doing that she could be doing so much more it's the fact that she cares about us... and all she wants is us to grow and be better No more Drugs No more Drinking is it really needed to make yourself feel better- You can do so much better then that, everyone can
Amy told me i've grown so much, from being a kid like the rest of the foolish bboys to someone better? more of an adult and that made me feel better, that at least one person out everyone else could for once stop thinking down of me, to think maybe behind this silly guy can be someone who is more mature and for that i thank you yet again Amy.
Everyones going though rough times right now and Amy said that if we all have to go though it, then at least at the end- we hopefully have grown to be a better person to be stronger to have more self control to be drug free to be in general a better person
and another thing if your unhappy then you should do something about it don't wait for some miracle to happen because miracles happen only once in awhile and theres not enough to make everybody happy so if you want to be happy fight for it do something about it it'll hopefully be all worth it at the end
Amy your the best and thanks again you really did make me feel so much better
I been blogging to much well i guess it's cause i have to many emotions sometimes i'm happy and other times i'm upset and it's fun to reread and know how i felt in the past
Well i feel so much better thanks to Calvin and Tiff they both gave me some Karma Points ^^ 100 from Calvin and 200 From Tiff Tiff Keeps calling me Aticus from "How to Kill a Mockingbird" YES IT'S A MANUAL :D *keke Killing Mockingbirds for dummies*
So i feel like i need a happy entry since right now i'm in a good mood? and i guess i should have a happy entry- Idk why i'm happy though :D
So I remember in the past i talked to Jiwon about what we want in guys/girls and i went back into the logger and pulled out what we both wrote and added a few things from a previous blog This is the official list of things i want to do with my girlfriend :D
~I want to watch Disney Movies with her (all the Disney movies) ~To worry about nothing only to be relieved later ~I want to sing and play her a song ~I want her to be someone who's there for me when the day is rainy ~I want to cook food with her & hold her from behind while she does the parts i suck at ~I want her to sit on my lap and hold my hand when we watch something on TV ~I want us to have a playlist of all our mutual favorite songs ~I want to take her on a date to a nice restaurant ~I want us to solve all our drama/problems ~I want to give her a good night kiss ~I want to snuggle :D ~I want to be there for her when a friend gives her problems ~I want us to be able to look at each other and know there's something wrong ~I want us to have our own Album on Facebook ~I want us to be together & still not lose sight of our friends ~I want us to make Mix Cd's for each other so our ipods will be full ~I want to hold her hand in the hallways in the mall in the street in the world ~I want the song Lucky to mean everything to me ~I want her to be perfect, because every flaw makes her the more perfect ~I want us to not care about life's shit and just be happy ~I want us to be happy in general and live happily ever after ~and i want her to be my high school love
i never expect all of this from one person- this is a life time of dreams
I think i have a lot of Bad Karma i'm like Santa Claus of Bad Karma I have so much- And i hate myself for it nothing good ever happens just shit and more shit i have a poo poo plater One Good Karma will cancel out a Bad Karma Right? well i need to do so much Good >> I wish there was a way where i can be forgiven and maybe for once good will happen instead of Bad Luck it's like Flipping the Lugia Coin... It's Always Tails-
Is Karma real or is just a figment of the imagination a way of thinking If you don't believe in Bad Karma then theres no such thing right? well if i try to not believe in karma will good things happen or will it just stay Neutral
The worst way to be tortured is to have everything you don't want and have everything you do want just an inch to far to reach to see it but not to be able to touch it Fuck Life-
I wish there would be a happy ending for once... wishes dont come true
Add On: How to get rid of Bad Karma-
One Guy said: You get good Karma by being good. Generous, Kind, Polite, Humble, are some of the qualities to good Karma.
2nd Guy Said: stop disrepecting animals by eating them, start respecting mother nature, be kind and show love to everyone, and be humble. always accept ppls views on life. never dicriminate.do all these things and the force of karma will reward you greatly.
3rd guy said: There is no such thing as good/bad in karma. Karma just is. The best description i can give without a ton of over the top rhetoric is the Laws of Nature-cause and effect. You do (a), (b) is gonna happen. You do (c), (d) is gonna happen. You don't "get rid of it" like a rash. You look to your idea that you are suffering. Is it true?
4th guy said: karma is your contribution to the world you live in. if you are basicaly a nice person and you truly believe your self to be so! then you will be surounded by it. bad karma isnt a rabid dog to attack you. its just some poor unfortunate souls personal burdon. it just seems so much louder than good karma. ha ha ...does to me any way.
5ht guy said: Hello. Stop wanting good Karma and it will come to you. You are stuck with the psychological mind of what Karma is.... Karma is beyond the mind. Try to feel and be present wherever you are.... and will will always have good Karma.
6th guy said: With good actions bad karma is "burned" away. By learning lessons and advancing in your thinking (enlightenment, not intellectually) you can eliminate bad karma
kekeke! it's so nice to keep finding nice things in one song it's like i memorized the words but i never realize how sweet certain words are until i pay attention
Like yesterday i found this: "let the music fill the air let me put a flower in your ear" i think that was a cute verse
and today "every time we say goodbye i wish we had one more kiss"
"I'll wait for you i'll promise you i will"
oh fuck this song is just so "mmazing?" Jiwon kekeke
Lucky-Jason Mraz Lyrics:
(Jason) Do you hear me, I’m talking to you Across the water across the deep blue ocean Under the open sky, oh my, baby I’m trying
(Colbie) Boy I hear you in my dreams I feel your whisper across the sea I keep you with me in my heart You make it easier when life gets hard
(Both) I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend Lucky to have been where I have been Lucky to be coming home again Ooohh, ooooh, oooh, oooh, Oooh ooh ooh ooh
(Both) They don’t know how long it takes Waiting for a love like this Every time we say goodbye I wish we had one more kiss I’ll wait for you I promise you, I will
(Both) I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend Lucky to have been where I have been Lucky to be coming home again Lucky we’re in love every way Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed Lucky to be coming home someday
(Jason) And so I’m sailing through the sea To an island where we’ll meet You’ll hear the music fill the air I’ll put a flower in your hair
(Colbie) Though the breezes through trees Move so pretty you’re all I see As the world keeps spinning round You hold me right here right now
(Both) I’m lucky I’m in love with my best friend Lucky to have been where I have been Lucky to be coming home again I’m lucky we’re in love every way Lucky to have stayed where we have stayed Lucky to be coming home someday
hehehe everything is so sweet i bolded my favorite lines :D
Such a great song ^^
I got my haircut today and i got it from Will again he's a really great stylist he said he's going to cut my hair once a month :D and he's in Phase 2 ^^ I saw Phillip and Robert go to get their haircuts too Phillip has a crazy Peacock cut ^^
Ryan Oscar Jared Ceasar Pera and Jojo were at tysons with me too it was interesting lol they did nothing but be idiots and it brought back old memories i kind of miss that, haha Ryan stole me a shirt, socks and a Jacket keke no karma points vyanh ^^
After that i had a lonely bus ride to Vincent's and i called him but noone answered so i walked all the way to safeway hoping to see Renee but no Renee :[ so i called Vincent again and he said come over now so i walked back, and it was lonely and cold :[
I got there and did a bunch of pokemon shit with Jason made a new deck ESPEON~MY BABY ^^ and then everyone came over to "Rave" hahaha
that was fun at least i thought it was i wish i could have helped Vyanh and Tiff more :[ i think i make things to complicated when teaching because i have photographic memory and i remember things with symbols so when i see something it symbolizes what to do in raving and rubiks cube and life lol
like i needed to remind myself to tell my mom to get me a doctors appointment at 10ish so i thought of doctor and Frankie who's in my 3rd period and when i got to 3rd and saw Frankie i said AH DOCTOR lol i'm silly ^^
I think the best part of the night was to lay on the roof and just lay there with everyone around to cuddle for warmth Tom Tina Vyanh and I were buddy-less :[ lmao its alright thought kee
It's as if everyday gets more and more interesting- so a few days ago i wanted to move and i could- And i wanted to move because i hate being here with bboy around me at the time i couldn't take it!!! i hated to see it but not be part of it it made me so envious of how shitty my shoulder is!! but i soon realized how much i would miss everyone, How horrible it would be to not be around them... When i was at the verge of moving i realized how shitty it would be without them I was excited to leave, to make new friends to start a new- but is it really worth it? nope :) I rather sit on the roof with everybody for the next few months then switch schools i promised my Biff that on graduation day i would tell her: "High School is over! :D" yes i'm going to say Smiley Face ahh that day will soon be here~ I wish we could sit on the roof all night and watch the stars maybe a shooting star will come and we could wish for one more shooting star ^^
Boo Hoo March 5th i'm getting surgery on my shoulder AGAIN! ughh life sucks :[ which means on my birthday i'm going to be in a sling again :P and i'm going to be out of it for awhile ughhh One month and i get surgery it approaches quickly-
Mister why did you spill 2 different types of cereal in my bowl! i put Lucky Charms in there already why did you add Fruity pebbles into the mix! You can't have a chex mix in cereal it's against the rules~ mister you are a bitch and make me want fruity pebbles and want to pick out the lucky charms but then again lucky charms are so delicious! ohhh what to do
UPDATE~ So as i thought then night was ending but i decided to go out again! lol and it was so worth it ^^ I walked back to Vincent's house and it was a long lonely walk but Mr.iPod was there for me :D
I changed my Blog Title because as i walked to Vincent's house i Sang as i walked there (which was super fun) i danced as i walked there (sounds weird but i did it lol) and yesterday i had stolen things (well Ryan stole for me :D) so it was the perfect title of the day keee
So as i walked i came to this dark area D: and the trees were hovering above me and it was so scary (my number 1 fear is shit coming out of trees) so i got scareeed D: and called Tiff lol and at one point when i was singing Your Beautiful by James Blount i passed this house and thought i saw someone move in the backyard so i ran away D: lol my walks are funny then i was close now and i was walking past this fence and i stopped and i looked at my Shadow and it looked cool i was like posed so perfectly but not enough light to take a picture :[
So i finally arrived at Vincent's house and i sat there with Tiff and watched some movie then David kicked me off and i just played ipod games with Vyanh she owns at Mancala :D then we just layed there watching the movie waiting for something exciting to happen and that excitement was Tom! he came back with the car he stole from his mom lmao she kept calling him to return it and come home for work the next day but that crazy son of a bitch decided to go to ihop and pick up Anna lol he took Vyanh Tiff and I with him so us 5 had a nice meal at Ihop On our way home it was great, it snowed the snow fell slowly and elegantly on to the street but then ran over by cars D: but the snow that landed on the sidewalk was pretty ^^ first snow that snuck to the ground this year happy snow everybody~ We dropped off everybody and Tom took me home i went in and dropped dead in my bed and finally the day was over- "On the Roof of Vincent's house" taken by Vyanh :p sorry Tiff D:
Everyday is always better with a nice cool sip of Orangeade it's exactly what i need on a cloudy day
*Today* Happy Chinese New Years everybody At school today was the Festival thingyy and we sold stuff made over 300 dollars but had to pay back a lot of people so we broke again D:! kekeke
After that we went to Samanthas house and did nothing- Absolutely nothing productive
THEN we went to Reggie's house HAPPY BIRTHDAY REGGIE !!!!!! i doubt you read my blog but whatever (: We did so much there and that was funn Halo Pokemon Food Cards (13 and uno) ABDC And just hanging out with everybody ^^ it's been so long ahh!
To Have the biggest crush ever- to have a crush that started MONTHS ago ah i'm going insane- i miss you during the day i just want to talk to you and see you but blehhh Before i use to think, No girl can be perfect because there was no such thing but hmm i just can't find a flaw in you im so corny XD but who gives a damn maybe it's that your flaw is just another thing that makes you the more perfect even if you like someone else for now i just want to be close to you~ your my Orangeade of the day~
Lemonade- Your what i need on a hot summer day Lucky- Becasue your my best friend
Recently i guess i've been so emotional and it's not because of School Days i just like to talk about Katsura :D But yeah...I guess it's because of my shoulder It's time to stop living the way i am i need to stop Break Dancing! It just keeps helping my shoulder pop out and it cost so much each Hospital Trip From now on i will not bboy... But it hurts so much at school, to see the bboys and the fact i can't be part of the Heritage Show sigh..it makes me feel useless and shitty
So i'm going to start playing the guitar again for sure now i'm going to go buy my guitar very very soon :D and i got Netflix woot! i can watch Dramas and TV Shows and Movie and EVERYTHING lol woot woot woot
I like the saying "When one door closes another one opens" Heartbreaks after Heartbreaks it's alright because i'm Ironman ^^ This school years love cycle just seems to repeat it self over and over and over again~
One day i'll find My Katsura ^^ and Sekai won't do shit XD but i think i found my Katsura?~ what should i do...? rawr-
Love is Gay :D Life's a Bitch Love makes the day better Life becomes a happy place right?
~My Monologue The Winks By: Derrick Comedy
NO! wait no, i'm-i'm-i'm a wink... alright? David I'm not some interracial porn loving legless hobo Who was raised in an orphanage in Kansas, under the name Francis Mcginen Fell in love with one of the nuns that raised me ran away with her started a family in eastern Kentucky acquiring a gambling debt with the local Mexican mafia came home to find my house and family torched [passionate] Killed 2 family members of the Mafia Found refuge in Louisiana after the chaos of Hurricane Katrina Found enough money in a flooded home to get here [Passionate] Saw you mowing your lawn...reminded me of my dead son Louis decided to become your new father, and slowly poison your real father Snuck into your house periodically to talk to you thus assuming the role of the father figure and trying to impregnate your mother while she sleeps [straight face for a few seconds] thats nonsense...thats...THATS NOT HAPPENING...OKAY? I'm a wink David our Urine has bits of gold in it [straight face]
So i finished School Days so great ^^ it left me in shock for like 10 minutes lmao So amazing-
It makes me want a perfect girl through the whole anime i loved Katsura So in love with her lol XD
My perfect girl... i want it to be like Katsura personality wise Im so gay and nerdy right now gahhh... Wikipedia Character Bio for Katsura: Genteel and reserved, Kotonoha Katsura is a student in year one of class four who is on the Student Council and serves as one of the most pivotal characters in the story. A cute and noticeably well-endowed bookworm, she becomes the initial love interest of Makoto early into their second term, and with some effort from Sekai Saionji, becomes his girlfriend after she reciprocates her affection for him. While Kotonoha for the most part is calm and gentle, she has a very delicate conscious.
sighh i wish the perfect girl would walk into my life somehow- bleh
~~It seems my world has crashed My world was bboy bboy is gone thus my world is gone its like rebuilding life like everything is gone its as if nothing matters- Would Moving away solve this problem? to be the new kid? mmhm who knows...
I get emotionally scarred a lot emotionally scarred means to keep an emotion for a long period of time after a event. Like when i watch TV shows and something cute and lovey happens i'll keep that lovey dovey feeling for awhile. I was watching School Days the anime and i'm hooked first 2 ep are so great SO CUTE~<3 i show my very girly side like this it was just the cutest thing ever.
To be honest- I love these kind of things Cute lovey things it's my favorite im such a chick This is why i enjoy chick flicks i rather watch a chick flick over an action movie (except Ironman)
so this School days show, i think it's currently my favorite show but i change favorite shows all the time lol it makes me emotional so...i like it kekeke
In the near future i want to be on open mic night i want to play songs for a crowd have the spotlight on me that is one of my many dreams to play on open mic night :D
I also want to one day play a song for a girl i'm crazy for ^^ but first i need to get a guitar and relearn all my old songs D: so much workk
SCHOOL DAYS still so cute <3~ rawr wtf is wrong with me i wish i could have that kind of relationship (talking about first 2 eps) just so adorable... damn me for being so vulnerable to be emotionally scarred
it seems every week i have a phase something that drives my week i call them my tiny obsessions MYO every week its always something else something weird one week it was TUH-TULS another it was Uniraffe another it was Shaveice Babies and now it's PYT (Pretty Young Thing) lmao i'm so odd...
SO do you remember there was this shit on my left eye... some kind of eggsma it was crispy and disgusting well i got this cream from my doctor and it made it go away but there were side effects... the cream had Steroids in it and it went into my body and i became over emotional for the past week it's very strange... now i feel like jolly happy normal? fucking cream made me lose so much in one week... it made me do things i usually don't do i got mad and i tore up my room wtf.... i would never do that- it's just so odd... fucking steroid cream crap
So i told you everything how i felt... and i want you back i hope you say yes? i really miss you
It's weird when you find out someone you haven't talked to in awhile has been reading your blog it's like they know whats up with you but you don't know shit lol it's like they read about what you been up to and blahh lol VIShODA XD
OH I FORGOT so i was watching ABDC yesterday and the guy in Quest has the hair style i was going to get i'm like WTF! but it's bad ass now i have a picture of it and i don't have to describe it! btw Quest FTW His name is - Ryan Conferido pic 1 pic 2 in pic 2 that shaved part he has lines there i'm going to make a star :D
now that i can't break anymore D: i'm going to start focusing on so many new things BBoying will always be a huge part in my life Dancing in general will never go away- Now i'm going to start to learn other dances taht involve Hip-hop like poping
I'm going to start my Guitar Dream I'm going to start going to school for hair and fashion Theater and Acting in general I'm going to do everything :D
Quest FTW that guy in ABDC Quest has my hair wtf lol pretty sick though :D
yet again it's happened again.. My shoulder popped out. Today must be my number one worst day ever...First i come to conclusion that we will never be together. Then i live a upsetting and depressing day. Oh then i dislocate my shoulder, life is a bitch. Thanks everybody for helping me in my time of need, especially Vincent, Trang, Elizabeth, Victor Jim and Ashly. Thanks for sticking around when you didn't need to. You guys are the best. I think at situations like this, the only person that can keep me from bursting out in pain and making me Ironman is that fact that i keep myself alive. Saying stupid jokes and making everybody laugh. I guess to hear everyone's laughter is my IV fluid. So I dislocated my shoulder after school... At school my pain wasn't really the shoulder, i just had to take a huge crap XD. My mom picked me up and took me to the hospital. In the hospital, I was reconized lol. And i already knew the routine... I think i'm super awesome because i took a crap at the hospital. WITH A DISLOCATED SHOULDER-damn i'm amazing. Getting the toilet paper was the hardest part it just rolled all over the floor, i couldn't catch it lol. So the most painful part was when they gave me my X-Ray they made me stand in the most uncomfortable postions and the guy didn't know how to put me back on my bed. So painful...not even Ironman can take that- So i was talking to every doctor there about Scrubs lol. I meet this one guy who looked like Keith hahaha i told him and he said yeah but i'm obviously so much cooler. I'm like heck yes lol. So when this lady dropped my arm and i screeched in pain, Cooler Keith helped me and i thanked him. I told me Doctor to bring in JD and Turk and she said okay when you wake up they might be here and then they tried to put me to sleep. it Failed- so i witnessed the whole performence of them operating on my arm. it was so painful... They tied a weight on my arm that was dislocated, flipped me over to where i was laying on my tummy and they tried to use the weight to pull my shoulder back together. They were suprised because i didn't know their was a weight and i pulled it all the way up lol. Oh FLIPPING ME TO LAY ON MY TUMMY was so painful, The whole time i was really drowsy and i'm like telling the doctors how i'm Ironman and how the Dark knight wasn't that great, While they were operating on me i was talking about super heroes then they got it in. and i passed out. Another funny part is when they were trying to wait for me to fall asleep there were like 10 doctors in my room staring at me, I said outloud "Hey Docs, you know what would be awesome. If all of you started to sing!" they all smiled and laughed and asked what song. i said Love Story by Taylor Swift :D but they didn't know it lol. So i woke up an hour later and went home.
I feel that my hospital trip today was fun.
having this shoulder problem is like a cap on lifes oppertunities. I'm Limited- I feel like shit and i want to die. To know that i can never reach full potential it drives me crazy this when i declare life sucks and this obstacle is one that i can never overcome because this problem will never fade away only get worst...
I wish someone could understand this feeling that i have~
~Throw Them Back ~Light them on Fire ~Make some badass Pink Lemonade ~Make faggy normal lemonade ~Fuck 'em (like put your penis in them fuck 'em) ~Catch them with your mouth ~Use more then 10% of your brain so you can catch the lemons before they hit you and throw them 12 miles down the street till it hits a fat kid on a bike where he is injured and scared of lemons
It's your choice :) just like everything else
Parent Figure: Son how was your day? Son: Today i learned that: Doing what you think is right doesn't always mean that you'll be a happy camper. But being happy can stretch miles till it hits someone else-
Everyday choices are made, and sometimes it needs to be done faster then others stop being indecisive; it's stupid Pick one or the other- I made a big choice today, but it was for the better~
Sometimes life is like pokemon Let's say my Charmander is level 16 and it can evolve now but i want it to learn Fire Fang at level 25 but if it evolves to a Charmeleon then it won't learn Fire Fang till level 28 But if it does evolve now at level 16 it's stats will be so much better ~Basically i'm saying it's better to affect the future rather then now because you know if you go for the joy right now then later it will affect you a lot more
Life is such crap sometimes.. why do i keep speaking in Metaphors damnit fuck i'm hurt, i'll admit it but it's always good to know you made a good choice how do i know am i making a good choice, Because i know if i didn't do something now it will bite me in the ass later.
The thing is i was to late to make a good choice so it still will bite me in the ass- I leveled my Charmander to level 19 already so i lost 3 levels of extra stat points...
baby i'm sorry-you know it's for the better everything will be okay, eventually
I think Love Story by Taylor Swift is a bad ass song :D Damn i'm becoming such a chick recently
JD AND ELLIOT GOT BACK TOGETHER IT WAS AWESOME :DDDDDDD deep secret...the reason why i don't really watch Drama's and TV show's is because i get emotionally scared. like right now this whole get back together thing yeah...i won't get over it for a few days...lol i'm sad XD
I don't know how to start this blog except by stating that i don't know how to start the blog I have good and bad things to say in this blog lol let's go from bad to good and alternate like that...
So i'm starting to see so much bad in people And i hate it like "How To Kill A Mockingbird" i wish i could be Boo Radley and not see any of this How the fact everybody only cares about themselves about saving your own ass. But then i also think, that only applies to the normal people in life What about the good people? the ones who do care! who want to make things better is it pointless because everyone is hardheaded! sometimes i think it's the effort that counts, I ask my friends were all falling apart and everything seems to be going wrong and everyone seems to be having problems with one another or with themselves why doesn't anyone try to help one another the answer is that help from someone else can only stretch so far why can't we all be like Gumby and stretch our arms around the world Karma if you help someone they will help you back? Why can't i try my best to help everyone around me, sometimes when something is coming and theirs nothing you can do about it a friend can only comfort and all i can hope is that you'll feel better over time
So at Tysons today I went and got a Arctic Rush at Dairy Queen and i asked the guy "Is this the best Arctic Rush you've ever made in your whole Dairy Queen Career?" He nodded his head yet "i said it better be! thanks" walked away it was the best Arctic Rush ever XD
Sometimes you read someone's blog and your put into fault like you know you did something wrong and they basically put it out there sure makes you feel like crap. At other times they write something and you feel so connected to their words and if their words of sorrow and pain i want to stretch my arm over to them When i read your writing it's like... That very instance of me reading it, your telling me how you feel but you don't know who i am. your telling a stranger. But when i do connect it's like your telling me and we connect like 2 Gameboy colors playing Pokemon. It's a spark to signal me that we should talk this through... even if you probably don't like me very much
I think i did well on my Mid-Terms i'm getting my haircut soon and i found a new laptop i want woot :D
Grudge~ My Grudge Book is horrible contains all the hatred i have and bull shit... stuff i won't let go and they could be even for the stupidest reason Like the people who know what i'm talking about, You lied to me that one night you lied to me so i wouldn't feel bad that i wasn't invited But did it ever occur it hurt more finding out you were lied to then knowing the truth By lying it made everyone else feel bad for lying Also if you knew me well enough, then you would know i would have been okay if i was told not to go... but worst of all it's in my grudge book and it will never come out
Never say this again "Let them deal with their own problems" that pissed me off, nothing against you. i know what you've been going through...If only we really could help each other more. If everybody just cared enough-
WOOT i finally sold my Wii :D i kind of miss it but i'm not going to once i get my NEW LAPTOP! lalalala I'm so giddy about it i love being Giddy :D HEHEHEHE So It will be mine soon!
Tomorrow i have so many test D: GRR must study
Thy you bitch you make me realize things that are hidden deep within me ;[ You make me miss -
i are very pissed... Still noone has bought my Wii I always get so close I have to get past a few problems once they email me First - They only want the games Second - They don't want it once they know it's modded Once i get someone who is okay with it we try to pick a place and time to meet up with each other and then they quit out on me at the very end ... People Suck
I just want my laptop D:
Life is becoming a torture it's as if everyone around me is sad? Everyone seems to hate the time I'm in a love hate situation I love and like certain things On the other hand i hate it I wish everything was as easy as a movie where at the end everything turns out good for the main character well they usually turn out good i only say i'm the main character because it's my prespective and i'm narrating in first person Maybe i'm only at the Falling Action I remember the Climax; What a Climax it was :D I hope there is a good Resolution!
I find that there is nothing to look forward too I go to school, And i watch life go by ;[ I miss Winter Break no Summer Break But Summer is only a few months away Every Month seems to be getting closer to a happy time or is it the count down to everything ending All the Seniors will be gone Then new Freshmen arrive Summer is 3 months of fun then school starts and blah
I kind of wish i had love right now would be the prefect time Nothing to look forward to i want someone to make my day super and filled with excitement i want something like this:
To have a plan on when to see each other in the hallways BUT then me or she never shows up and the other worries then in the next class all me or she does is check their phone waiting for a explanation and when the screen lights up and gives your leg a little jolt of vibration you slide/flip/tuoch open your phone and it says "sorry baby i had to stay late to take a test" your like yay and you feel all happy again but this happy is better then seeing them in the hallways! because you were kind of sad you didn't see them! and me or she made them feel better when they were a little sad and everything is all happy again :)
I want to watch a movie with her and she knows my real focus is just her my mind says screw the movie i make a few moves like the YAWNing trick and through the movie she knows that i'm just waiting for it to end so then we can just have our time together
I want to hold her hand in the hallways in the mall in the street in the world
I want my best guy friends to be envious of her and i can laugh at them if their dicks and smile when they tell me things and punch them in the face when they say they check her out lol
I want to be able to smell their aroma and miss it...
damn it i'm becoming such a chick lol someone to make me more man :)
Rawr! i'm so happy and so confused and the biggest dick in the world!
It's like everything is perfect and every bit wrong. I'm starting to emit every piece of feeling i have towards you. but we need to talk and your going to be sad your voice will go down and your going to be upset that were talking about it again. Inside it's driving me crazy at school. you make me go through torture. To watch you but not be able to do anything! i want your lips on mine, it's been to long >> Never thought you would be the person that makes me the happiest person in the world Late long phone calls ^^ Your beautiful eyes your skin brushing on mine the tiny thrill of secrets The Question Game Non-stop texting Baby your amazing :)
But we really need to talk...
Still can't sell my Nintendo Wii :[ My video isn't getting big hits Mid-Terms omg I can't wait until the weekend Just one more Day
Favorite Songs: 1. Dancing in the Moonlight - Toploader 2. Lemonade - Passion 3. Oh is it Love - Hellogoodbye 4. Mona Lisa (When the World Comes Down) - All American Rejects 5. Can I Have This Dance - Vanessa Hudgens & Zac Efron (i know you can call me a fag ^^)
Favorite Movie: IronMan
Biggest Fears: 1. Things coming out of Trees 2. Backflips 3. disgusting bumps on the skin (looks like mushrooms)
Number One Turn On: Playing with Hair
Favorite Holiday: Christmas
Favorite Season: Winter (i love winter fashion and i like jackets ^^)
Favorite TV Show: Shaman King & Scrubs
Favorite Word: "Hip it"
Favorite Day of the Week: Between Friday and Saturday
SURVERY THAT I FOUND ONLINE (may be repeats)
JTC
Scarfs and Hats
I Don't Believe in Food
Hukah Bar
In my butt
Ashly
I'm not sure
ew. no Rape
Hair ^^
Bangkok 54
My Biff and April
Night
Mother
nethier
No
Bangkok 54's Special Fried Rice
Sometimes
YES
Their Cool
Noone Posted it lol
Yeah and someone's going to soon
Sadly no
YES I WANT PURPLE
Nope
noo
nope lol at least i don't think so
ONE AND HIS NAME IS ROSCO
nope
boring and rainy
Lemonade
Dancing in the Moonlight and Lemonade
Ironman
yes i do
Lance's House
Zero :[
ears
When a Girl is sleeping talk in a lower toned voice, it will make it less likely she will be awaken.
Double Chocolate Chip or White Chocolate Moca
none
i wish
yes
Nope Maple all the way :D lol Just kidding
yes a Korean one
Idk his name
someone that i won't say ^^
Ironman
By my family and Friends Yes
Not yet
Somebody's Aroma
Butter
yes i have
No
idk lol
my shit computer
HELL YEAH
BURGER KING
I don't know
Don't watch Baseball
Lots of times
nose lol
A day and a Half
Wii Bowling :D
Vincent's House in the Big Chair i felt like a dog
With Ashly
Never lol
RUBIKS CUBE
~Lemonade Lyrics~ She's my sunshine in the rain My Tylenol when I'm in pain yeah Let me tell you what she means to me, Like a tall glass of lemonade When it's burnin' hot on summer days She's exactly what I need
[Chorus] She's soothing like, The ocean rushing on the sand She takes care of me baby And she helps me be a better man She's so beautiful, Sometimes I stop to close my eyes She's exactly what I need
(Verse two) She's my smile when I'm feelin' blue She's my good night sleep When the day is through yeah Let me tell you what she means to me (Yeah, she's kinda like this) Kinda like the feelin' after your first kiss Except that Everyday she makes me feel like this Coz she's exactly what I need Oh yeah, oh yeah
[Chorus] X3 She's soothing like, The ocean rushing on the sand She takes care of me baby And she helps me be a better man She's so beautiful, Sometimes I stop to close my eyes She's exactly what I need
Bye Louis & Christina! have a safe flight back home
So On Saturday I went to DC with Samantha, Vyanh, Tina, Amy, Tom, and Vincent it was fun; at least most of it. they went to go Ice Skating but the others didn't show up so we went to the National Gallery of Art! lots of funny paintings there Vyanh and I tried to figure out the ones downstairs but we like only figured out one of them, and figured out in our eyes
then we went to the National History Museum and we saw a whale and left lol i thought it was real but IT WAS FAKE :[
so we went to the Aquarium to find one also Vincent Tom and Amy went home at this point so it was us 4. we saw lots of awkward and Funny fishes and animals. they were cool Vyanh gots PICTURES :D
then we rode the metro back home and my mom picked us up and we dropped them off
and to lazy to keep writing right now finish later
so i spent New Years Eve with all my friends :D and it was quite fun afterward we went to Vincent's and Dota the night away
When i woke up i went to the bus stop to try to catch a bus home in the booth there was this guy and i asked him about the bus stuff and he told me to sit and we started to talk very nice casual man he was drinking a little bit of alcohol and he smoked a cigarette he was African American and had a beanie on big baggy Jeans and boots.
We talked about New Years and how many people woke up New Years day in Jail he told me why and what was going on. People were drinking and driving and getting caught by the police he then started talking about ladies he said that most women have had bad relationships in the past and even if you are a good guy well she'll sometimes bring that bad relationship bag with her and dump it on you, and that sucks
he also said never steal it's stupid He said to always do good at school never smoke never drink it could ruin your life. then he told me something i never saw coming he said in these exact words "little brother, let me tell you something. you may look at me and think to yourself this guy he's okay. but did you know i'm homeless" he pulled out this little green card that said Hypothermia entrance The card meant he was allowed to go in the shelters and churches so he wouldn't die. he said smoking a cigarette ruined his life doing Pot ruined his life getting in to drinking ruined his life. Be smart and go to school get a good career don't be like me
My favorite quote that he said to me was "i'm not a saint, but i'm not no bad guy ethier, things just didn't turn out all perfectly for me. Sometimes you can't help but be at the wrong place at the wrong time"
then his bus came he shook my hand and said "hi my name is Bruce nice to meet you" i told him my name he took off his Beanie and said"look at me good cause if you ever see me again don't forget to say hi." then he got on his bus and he left.
Even though he was homeless, he was one of the greatest men i have ever meet.
Hey My Name is Jansen, i'll start off my saying that i'm not gorgeous, i'm not multi-talented & i'm not perfect. I'm just a guy who loves to be funny, who wants to be your best friend, who wants to share his interest with you, who likes being out of the ordinary. I guess if you were to see me across the room I would be some pretty lame dude, but hopefully you come up to me and say hi because that's the only way you'll see my true colors. I'm just one really exciting book.
